It's Been Four Months

It's been four months since I abandoned this blog. You have had a very successful summer and the fall looks to be even better for you. You have continued with your chemotherapy and I hear you are getting radiation as well. Someone said seeds, but I don't know. Long about the middle of July the judge granted me an extension of the restraining order. He saw an escalating pattern of erratic and unpredictable behavior. Being that you had chosen to throw this divorce into the domestic violence arena, it put us on a totally different track than your average divorce. When he set down his ruling, the judge said that it is really called the Domestic Violence Prevention Act, and an important part of what he does is look at patterns of behavior and then act to protect potential victims. For that reason he gave me a 5 year restraining order against you and your growing insanity.

It is tragic that in order to save your physical life, you lost your family. I would have chosen the same route with chemo but would have had my psychiatrist work with my oncologist to make sure my mood swings didn't get out of control. In the course of these past four months you have thrown away me and our daughter. And you forged ahead in an unrelentingly nasty manner. You didn't hesitate to verbally threaten and bully me via my lawyer and our daughter.

I have started paying you spousal support. It is making my life difficult and I imagine you sitting in a casino somewhere in the desert with a cigar in one hand and poker cards in another. You have no financial worries now unless you bring them on yourself, which you are sure to do. You have moved to the desert. You have lived in a clothing optional community, you've bought yourself a motorcycle, you've got a new laptop and God knows what else. You are beating cancer and living off of me. Life has a weird way of turning things around. In time you will have that very complicated 'Whipple Plus' surgery. They will reverse your intestinal bypass and reconstruct the blood supply to your intestinal tract.

I will try to move on.