Monday the 28th

It can be pretty quiet here in the mornings. Many of the fam like to sleep in, even some of the kids. You have been able to meditate. It means a lot to you but I have never understood it. I tried it years ago, before we got married and didn't take to it at all. It's your evening meditation that is fraught with interruptions and noise. I told you it would be better if you meditated in our bedroom.

I stayed in my pajamas so long today, it almost wasn't worth it to put clothes on . Getting on the LifeCycle kicked me into gear. I rode for over 30 minutes. I tried not to put any stress on my knees so I used the lowest training level. You didn't exercise today. Yesterday you did the stairs six times and then you and I took a half-hour walk. You were paying for it today.

Mike, Joy and Scott arrived late, about 7 p.m. Sue and I had made stew for dinner, and she had baked beer bread. They brought supplies we had called and asked them to pick up in Sandpoint. They were in a great mood. Scott had his iPod and played it until late in the night. They were up until about midnight. Sue's kids love to play with and tease Scott, and he has a good sense of humor about it. You and my brother had a long talk since you have both had serious abdominal surgeries. You told him you were concerned about quality of life with chemo. The intermittent diarrhea and pimply rash and the fatigue aren't making you very happy.

Today you made an appointment with a doctor/nutritionist at UCLA for the middle of January. You won't be going to Susan anymore. You might shift to UCLA or some other center for your treatment once you get on Medicare in March.

Something started falling from the sky but was liquid by the time it hit the ground. We haven't had any snow yet but the weather had said it would start on Wednesday. We saw clouds move in late today and hope to see snow very soon.